God sees me...

​                   “God sees me. I am not invisible in God’s eyes. I may be invisible to others but not to God.”
                   Sometimes we go through life feeling invisible. It seems no one sees, no one knows, no one cares about what we’re going through and that we need help. We may try to reach out, but to no avail. Sometimes we don’t even bother because we don’t even know who to reach out to, who to trust. 
            Today I dealt with the topic of depression with the Christian club at my school. It was just an introduction because it is such an extensive topic that you can’t deal with it in just a few minutes. I spoke to them about the different ways a person might feel depressed and the many things people turn to in an effort to deal with their depressed feelings. As I spoke I saw the interest and I realized that these students could relate to what I was speaking about. They could relate to feeling alone in a crowded room; to feeling discouraged and not knowing exactly why; to “cutting” themselves as a means of dealing with the emotional hurt that was just too much for them to bear; to not knowing who to talk to because they don’t even know how to express what they’re feeling. We can, I guess all relate to depression. We may have all experienced it at some point in time or another.
            Many years ago I moved away from God and suffered from feelings of depression. Initially I couldn’t understand why I was feeling the way I was feeling until finally I was able to link it to the fact that I had backslidden.  Because of this a feeling of emptiness and hopelessness had taken control of me. It even led to thoughts of suicide which I battled with for a long time. But when I re-dedicated my life to God He gradually lifted those negative feelings and the desire to end my life finally left.
            That’s my story, what’s yours? Everybody’s story is unique and different. The one common denominator is the feeling of depression as we battle with situations and circumstances that seem beyond our control. Here’s the thing. God has promised that He will never leave us nor forsake us (Deuteronomy 31:6,8). Even when we move away from Him He does not go anywhere. He is right there waiting for us to come back to Him. Or, maybe you are not backslidden. Maybe you are serving God but there are situations that you are facing that seem to want to crush the very life out of you and you feel absolutely helpless and hopeless. It seems as if you’re crying out to God and He isn’t listening. You’re wondering: “God when will this hell that I’m going through be over?” “When are You going to come through for me?” Even now there are times when I wonder when will God come through for me. But indeed His grace is so sufficient (2 Corinthians 12:9). His grace gives you the strength to go through the fire, feel the burn and yet still be able to STAND! I remember there were times in my life I just wanted to give up as I faced an impossible challenge in my flesh. Yet, at just the right time, God would send a word or a song, SOMETHING that would give me the strength and motivation NOT to give up, not to give in, to keep pressing on, to keep holding on to my God, to my life and to His promises to me.
                So, I encourage you today, keep holding on, don’t let go of your God and if you don’t know Him, simply ask Him to rescue you out of the mess, out of that hopelessness. I can guarantee you, if He did it and continues to do it for me at just the right time, He will do it for you too!

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